No, you’re not alone at all. In fact it helps being part of the future rather than the past.Then it is just a matter of time with some bumps on the way rather than a long slide backward into barbarism, i.e. religiosity. But you need to keep this clear from spirituality. Spiritual awareness is an inherent characteristic of our species. It just took a long time to figure out how to deal with infinity and knowledge that will continue to expand us without remaining entrapped in superstition. The first is a route to happiness in the struggle to learn with the continuous surprise of discovery and the later leaves people in fear and ignorance that inevitably turns to hate.
It’s pretty simple when you think about it. And the common themes of pain and hatred among the old religions is obvious. Then you don’t have to prove anything to anyone but you can talk honestly about how you feel. And Happy Thanksgiving . . .